The religious differences of the world could be resolved with the one true confession of faith: “I don’t know.” I don’t know who I am or the ultimate nature of reality. My spirituality is an open question I’m living into, and I’m avoiding the temptation to need all the answers before I try. My morality is choosing love now. My understanding is trying to stay humble about what I think I know, and not taking myself too seriously.
We should replace our creeds with questions, because all we really know with certainty is the questions we would like to have answered. Asking questions creates expansion, but having the answers shuts down spiritual exploration.
Doubt is better than belief, because it requires more courage and conviction to delve into the unknown and admit your uncertainty. Doubt is a better path to finding “God” than faith in principles and writings that have no connection to the authority of your own heart. Doubt is a process of searching and discovery, but faith in the unknowable is collapse into a spiritual coma.
It feels like freedom not to know and to admit it. Embracing and rejoicing in not knowing is spiritual liberation, because the need for certainty is a burden and false solution to anxiety that creates many delusions. It is healing to not define yourself by being right or wrong. It is transformational to find out you’re wrong when you thought you were right, and a sign of maturity if this excites you.
Religious institutions have confused intellectual certainty of god with faith. But faith is about experience of the unknown beyond knowability. “I don’t know” is the religious sinner’s prayer of salvation from the slavery of intellectual certainty and the death of spiritual experience it brings.
The God-in-Not-Knowing is perhaps the only place with room enough left in the universe for a God to exist. Having “the knowledge of God” is the problem, for “God” is known by knowing you don’t. Those who have confused their idea of God with the reality of the numinous experience may need to become atheists for a time in order to experience the divine. The religious may need to give up faith if they want to experience “God” more than they want to know. Uncertainly is the irony of spiritual knowledge.
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